Ello online world! This be my first journal on DA, and I just felt compelled to get the confuzzlement locked inside my nogin OUTWARDS!

Things have jus been so bleh, tryin to find who I am, and make things work, and deal with all my demons. All seemed so simple at first, and then these things turned into many others...they multiply worse then rabbits! Tis hard to see who I am inside...I feel so many different things, and so many contradicting and confusing...haha I realize none of this will make much sense, but it's easier to stick somewhere then leave on my compy.

Was watching some anime, Escaflowne to be exact, and I got pumped up and felt so much more confident and felt that would fix things...oh how that was a shot in the face! Everything went lovely at first, got along with people, tried new things, put my head out, but I didn't realize I would end up opening up everything...including some very deep and hateful demons I had lurking underneath and behind everything. These came out at my party and yea...it leaves me questioning my sanity and what's driving them. Along with it all my insecurities have resurfaced and I'm not quite sure what to do with all this crap. :S Haha it's so much easier trying to fix other people's problems then to deal with your own. *sigh* It just feels like my heart isn't here anymore, like my drive or passion is out of almost anything I do.

Well...it's mildly nice to get things out for now haha. There is my random rant of self-confusion! Weeeee.

Peace out yall, and don't worry, only mildly insane! Buahahaha!